Dr. Paco Hinton Jr.

It has been years since the last blow-up or attempt to eliminate me. Times of peace bring optimism that things have changed or at least could change. One may think that no one could hold onto a petty grudge indefinitely, can they?🤔 I have assisted on a few things, and contrary to their disposition against me, evidence shows I have made life easier for all of them. Although my integrity never wavered, I was not their first or even last choice. In no way have I behaved underhanded or deceptively. 

However, during my bid, all the accusations made against me were not only false but were an actual representation of the lives and character of my naysayers. Unannounced to me, their dislike for me is closer to hatred than it is indifference. Bygones are not bygones, and they tolerate me most superficially. A one-dollar Hallmark card has kinder and more genuine words for me than my accusers can ever muster. I make them uncomfortable, and they resent me for that. The truths I share naturally exposes them, and they hate me for that too.

These people cannot look me in the eye because they fear I know too much about what they have said about me. Making eye contact with me is not a risk they are willing to take, for the eyes are the gateway to the soul and the best indicator that someone cannot stand you. Every embrace is awkward. Should you shake hands, hug or do each other a favor and leave it at hello? You just do not know. 

One thing is clear, even in their darkest moments, when they struggle to hold it together, they always remember one thing: they do not like me. My experiences could be hurtful if I believed their acceptance was necessary. However, the same truth that got me outcasted will continue on. The appropriate boundaries that have brought me thus far will remain.

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, it is one foot in front of the other. I have enough people that love me and keep me entertained until I hit the dirt. The hell with whatever gifts I brought that could have been helpful to the collective. I may know a few answers or a remedy but I denounce serving as a prophet or a savior.  I am perfectly fine to leave these venomous haters right where I found them,  even if that is the pits of hell. I am staying true to what got me here and will keep carrying on.